That's it

没错

Looking back now I didn't know what it was supposed to be

现在回过头 我不知道事情本来应该是什么样的

And it's like raising kids man

这就像是养孩子 伙计

If you weren't raised you don't know how to raise you know

如果你没有被抚养长大过 你也不知道要怎么养 你明白吗

I just did the best that I could with them

我只是对他们尽了我最大的努力

Because they know f**kin' well I love them

因为他们很清楚我爱他们

But I didn't do the best I could

但我没有尽力做到最好

I didn't know what the f**k I was doing

我不知道自己究竟在做什么

I didn't

我不知道

I will never forget watching my mother get put in a straightjacket

我这辈子都忘不掉 我妈妈被套上拘束衣

And taken out of my home when I was only seven years old

从家里被带出去 那时候我才只有七岁

She was diagnosed with Dementia praecox and put in a mental institution

她被诊断患有早发性痴呆 被送进了精神病院

Leaving my daddy alone with me and my little brother Lloyd

留下了我爸爸 我 还有我的弟弟Lloyd三个人相依为命

I later had an evil stepmother

然后我拥有了一个可怕的继母

Who further cemented the idea that I didn't need a mother

她甚至让我坚定了自己不需要母亲的想法

Growing up without one had long lasting influence

我就这样在一个对我影响深远的人身边长大

I didn't fully understand until much later in life

直到很久之后我才完全醒悟

It bled into my relationships with family

这影响了我和我家人的关系

And those I had became romantically involved with

还有我过去的所有恋爱

Whenever I got too close to a woman I would cut her off

无论何时我接近一位女性 我最后都会跟她一刀两断

Part of that was vindictive and partially based on fear

一部分是出于我的报复心理 一部分是源于我内心的恐惧

But it was also totally subconsious

但这完全是潜意识的作用

Looking back is a b***h isn't it

放不下过去是很混蛋的行为 不是吗

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