Having to lie I feel is the saddest

必须用谎言掩盖内心的真实感受

And the ugliest part of being a homosexual

我认为这是做一名同性恋者最悲伤最可怕的地方

When you have your first bad love experience for instance

比如 你第一次因为恋情而痛苦不堪

You can't go to your brother or sister and say "I'm hurting"

但你无法对兄弟姐妹吐露心声说 我很受伤